The Outsiders journal entry #6

Dear diary,

          He’s gone, he’s actually gone, I said I had his back and I didn’t and now he is dead because of me! “stay gold” what did that even mean? Did he really think that high of me? Even after I made him run away with me, kill someone for me, hide in a church with me, and wrecked his life? Stay gold is always a nice thing to say. It means that you are perfect in every way and you cant get any better, also to stay that way. He wasn’t just saying stay gold though. He was quoting the poem I read him. But the way it was used in the poem made it seem so much more meaningful. I loved him, and I still do no matter wear he is. He is my brother. I will miss him, but now I know I have someone watching over me, that will help us through this. I am actually surprised on how Two-Bit reacted, I guess he means more to him then I though. He ment more to all of us then we thought. I’ve never seen a Greaser die before i don’t know how we mourn officially, but I am sure I will learn. Hopefully they will grant his wish to stop fighting, he hates it, and I hate it too. I really don’t see the point in it, people just get hurt. Why cant we just look at people foe who they are and not what group they are in. Johnny and I where a lot alike in that way. But now that I am thinking of fighting, I am happy the Greasers won the fight. But what does that lead us to next?